I'm haunted by my memories of my time with Pepper, my time in the
mental hospital last year over thinking I hurt Pepper, having to put him
down yesterday over his FIP, --- I'll be haunted with this for a long time coming
I fear.
I got out of the hospital a year ago --- was mentally broken down over some things. The main thing was a horrible nightmare/illusion/reality (not sure which) of Pepper. Pepper was hurt badly around this time last year and was the main reason why I was in the mental hospital last year for a few days - I was scared that I was the one that caused his serious wound - and I still am scared I did caused that serious wound on his back. Maybe it really was only a nightmare as my dad and doctors said - but it was all to realistic at the time.
And now he's gone from his diagnosed FIP ....
I'm trying to pull it together right now so I don't end up back in the same hospital over him almost exactly a year later.
I got out of the hospital a year ago --- was mentally broken down over some things. The main thing was a horrible nightmare/illusion/reality (not sure which) of Pepper. Pepper was hurt badly around this time last year and was the main reason why I was in the mental hospital last year for a few days - I was scared that I was the one that caused his serious wound - and I still am scared I did caused that serious wound on his back. Maybe it really was only a nightmare as my dad and doctors said - but it was all to realistic at the time.
And now he's gone from his diagnosed FIP ....
I'm trying to pull it together right now so I don't end up back in the same hospital over him almost exactly a year later.
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