Lonelier

It is quieter and lonelier without Pepper here... I miss him very much. But I'm at peace knowing he's out of his suffering and pain. My dream last night about him really helped me - I guess it was a coping dream - but a nice one.

I'm finding I miss talking to him all the time. He was inside most of the time with me... I got so used to talking to him and I don't have that anymore. Helps that it's getting cold outside and Nut-Nut is staying indoors more often. I've always talked to the girls too but now I have to direct all my talks to Nut-Nut only and Honey when she decides to come inside. Strangely, it will be the winter forcing my girls to stay indoors more often that will help ween me off my talking to Pepper... but I'm at peace.

 Getting ready for the upcoming holidays! (Winter Solstice, Christmas Eve/Day and New Years).

Things are now re-freshened... I believe all traces of the contamination from Pepper's disease is gone (I'm hoping) --- what he had was contagious. Just got laundry to clean tomorrow - I hope to get that done then.

Got Pepper's other favorite (clean) comforter on the bed - the the other is in need cleaning.... just in-case the girls want to start sleeping with me again this winter. The girls also always love these comforters too - just as much as I do. Nice and warm for the winter ahead!

The girls just finished their dinners... kissed them good night as usual -- both are in their favorite drawers for sleeping now and doing good.

I'm not overly hungry this evening... thinking of one more cup of coffee to relax and unwind with... got some soft music playing. Sitting in the dark alone with the girls in their most favorite spots for the winter (their drawers - haha). Feeling bored, tired, and somewhat content this evening yet restless since I don't have my boy to check on anymore. I'll get used to it.